A nasty cold virus has been working its way through my family for the past ten days. By the time I went to bed last night I was beginning to feel that achy and heavy sensation that marks the beginning of a cold. I awakened this morning feeling much better than I thought I was going to and am now just feeling mildly crummy.
If I had to, I could work my way through this touch-of-a-cold. I could push through and keep going. However, there is something calling me to be very quiet; to sit, to nurture, and to reflect.
As I was juicing a little while ago, I was reflecting on the day that I had yesterday and the blog post that was the result. I was thinking about the fact that every workshop I lead feels magnificent. I was reflecting on the gift of ending every day of work feeling profoundly fulfilled, in the flow, and on purpose. And I was thinking about the fact that every single group I encounter, whether it is large or small, is full of dynamic, loving, curious and passionate individuals.
So what, I wondered, is the common denominator?
And the answer is…connection.
Every workshop I lead gives me the opportunity to connect with people in a way that truly makes my heart sing. And, not only that, I have the profound privilege of bearing witness to people connecting with each other. And that is why, day after day, the fulfilment of the work that I have chosen just gets deeper.
And, interestingly, while the fulfillment gets deeper, the work gets easier.
I mean, really, to call it work feels almost silly.
Before I hit the stride that I am feeling now, it used to feel stressful to run workshops even though I loved front-of-the-room. It used to take me a while to connect with a new group and to find my flow state. I always felt a little shy and uncomfortable while I got my bearings, settled in, and created the safe learning environment that is so important to me.
But now, I feel that sense of connection and flow gaining momentum while I am travelling into Toronto in the early morning. And by the time I am kicking-off the workshop, I am so connected and so deep in the state of flow that it feels as natural as breathing. And that means that I can not only deliver the message that I have been hired to deliver, but can also take it to the next level with laughter, with fun, with play, with fierce coaching, and with deep connection.
I used to feel absolutely exhausted by the end of a work day. I used to feel depleted and drained. I would drag myself home and need hours to recover from the output of energy. The introvert in me still needs time alone to process. However, it is no longer from exhaustion. Now, it springs from the need to quietly celebrate and acknowledge the deep connection and the brilliance of the human experience that makes my heart feel so full it could almost burst.
My original intention with 365 Radical Acts was to celebrate and acknowledge the concept of the great, big, juicy, Radical Act. And I intended to do that by acknowledging something Radical or extraordinary in the ordinary of my every day to see where those would lead.
As this project continues to deepen, however, I am just coming to realize that the most Radical Act of all is to see the extraordinary in the ordinary of every day. These last 203 days have reminded me how easy it is to get caught up in the ordinary-ness of raising kids, grocery shopping, working, paying bills, making coffee, sleeping, cooking, healing, and fighting, and forget how extraordinary our lives really are!
And so, today, from my own little quiet and connected corner of the world, I am sending out my deepest appreciation for this life that continues to unfold in all its extraordinary ordinary perfection.